I'm Back!

Hey guys!
  I haven't posted in a while right? Sorry. I have been busy. Aren't you glad I didn't forget abut you though? :D

The One In The Mirror

I look in the mirror
the person staring back
they are hideous
outside and inside
empty is all they are
empty and sad.

?Byung Hee and Ji Hyuk?

Have you ever shipped characters together and couldn't find anyone else who shipped them? It really makes you feel alone. I don't know if you guys have ever seen Shut Up! Flower Boy Band, but I really ship Byung Hee and Ji Hyuk and it seems that no one agrees with me. It breaks my heart really. I can't even express to you how much I cried when Byung Hee died. I still cry when I think about it now. I know how that must sound. I really do have some issues, but hey...don't we all? The only thing is my problems may be a bit more obvious and severe.

EXO Song Titles from Mama to Kiss & Hug

Goodbye Mama:

History shows that Machines often look for a creator, or a Mama if you will on a planet with Two Moons. They look for an Angel to tell them What Is Love.

Hello Kiss & Hug:

You're My Lady. You're my Baby, I need to tell you something and you might have a Heart Attack, but Baby Don't Cry. My Black Pearl, 3.6.5 days have passed and it's time to be honest. I still wish to be your Peter Pan, but I'm a Wolf and I need to Let Out The Beast.

!Kiyomi!

ildeohagi ileun gwiyomi
ideohagi ineun gwiyomi
samdeohagi sameun gwiyomi
gwigwi gwiyomi gwigwi gwiyomi
sadeohagi sado gwiyomi
odeohagi odo gwiyomi
yukdeohagi yugeun jjokjjokjjokjjokjjokjjok gwiyomi nan gwiyomi

translation:
1 plus 1 equals kiyomi
2 plus 2 equals kiyomi
3 plus 3 equals kiyomi
ki kiyomi ki kiyomi
4 plus 4 equals kiyomi too
5 plus 5 equals kiyomi too
6 plus 6 equals chu chu chu chu chu chu kiyomi
*on the chu's you kiss you thumb on one hand and then all of the fingers on the other hand to make 6 'chus' and then thumbs up while saying the final kiyomi

EXO WOLF CHINESE VERSION: FULL MUSIC VIDEO

EXO WOLF KOREAN VERSION: FULL VIDEO!

EXO Comeback!

EXO's comeback is in merely a few hours! How are you guys holding up? The video above is the music video teaser for Wolf in the Korean Version and the one below is the Wolf teaser in the Chinese Version. I will later be posting the album mash videos as well for the EXO-K album and the EXO-M album. :D

Enjoy! :) Will talk to guys soon! <3

First Published Fanfic!

So, I found out how to get the hangul keyboard on my computer. My only issue is remembering which key is which symbol. Hope it all works out. Thanks for the support you guys. Also, I posted my first fanfic on asianfanfics.com The link is below! Feel free to leave me some comments and constructive criticism! Thanks guys!!

http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/458472/just-a-tease-oneshot-exo-exok-exom-luhan-sehun-hunhan

Struggles

Struggles are all I have left,

the closer I get to getting passed them,

the harder the mountains are to climb.

!Korean!

Annyeong! so, I've started to learn the Korean writing system and thanks to my korean dramas and music, I've started to learn a few words as well! go me lol jk. So I'm pretty pumped about that. Maybe I'll be able to share a little with you guys soon!

I found you

So, I found my biological dad today on Facebook. I haven't said anything to him. I'm afraid that he wont like who I've grown up to be and the person that I've become. I am really glad that I've found him though and I have so many questions waiting to be answered. I am just happy that I've found him and for now that is enough.

Careless

        I'm not sure what it is, but lately I find it difficult to care. I can't seem to make myself care about anything really despite how important it is. Whether it's grades, friends, or just life in general. Two friends have recently left me for dead and yet, here I am perfectly fine as if nothing happened at all. It's not like they weren't good friends either, they were awesome friends and that's why it (me not caring) bothers me so much.
        Also, I've noticed that I can't tell how I am feeling...I'm not happy, not sad, not angry, not frustrated, I feel nothing. I have no emotion. I don't know if that makes since so let me explain further. I don't know how I feel until other people tell me how I am acting.
        For example, let's say someone said some really mean things about me behind my back and I was just hearing about it. My friend tells me what they said. We will pretend they said I was a horrible person or something like that ok? I think that I don't care and that it doesn't bother me until some else later in the day sees me and tells me that I seem upset, I have had a frown on my face all day, and I am being antisocial.
        That's when I realize that I was actually upset, and even then when someone tells me how I am acting and I realize that I am upset I still don't feel those emotions. Does that make since? I don't know if it does, but even if it doesn't oh well. I just feel like I have no say in the way that I feel. I feel like I depend on what other people say in order to know what's going on inside of me and that makes me feel dependent. I don't like feeling dependent.
         Anyways, I'm glad that you read this through all the way to the end. Thank you. If you feel this way or have ever felt this way please contact me and tell me how I can get through this.

To The Beautiful You: My Deciding Factor

Have any of you ever watched any foreign dramas such as: Korean, Taiwanese, Chinese, or Japanese dramas? Well, I just recently finished on called To The Beautiful You. It is about a young girl known as Goo Jae Hee (Played by Sulli from F(x) who desguises herself as a male to attend an all boys school. She does this because a high jumper, Kang Tae Joon (played by Minho from SHINee) gets injured and she wants to help him to be able to jump again.

    It is an amazing story and I like it a lot, perhaps a little too much. You see, I also have grown to like Amber from F(x) a lot too and she is sometimes mistaken for a boy, also I have grown to find girls who act and dress like boys very attractive. My main point for all of this is that....this drama was the deciding factor in my decision to disguise myself as a boy and see how long I can go without people knowing that I am really a girl.

   I have decided that I want to cut my hair and get some binding and buy so boy clothes. My hope is that I can do all of this sometime soon. I have really been inspired. My sister also did this once and it was really cool. What do you guys think? I know it's prob a bad idea, but I kind of want to try it. What do you think?

Baby Don't Cry

Please don’t hesitate anymore
Just hold tight to my heart
Love is just like a dazzling light
Eyes closed upon the sharp moonlight
If it’s not me but other guy
If this is a sentence in a comedy
Where I can laugh it off
I will exchange your love with a scar

Baby don’t cry, tonight
When the dark night lit up
Baby don’t cry, tonight
Just treat it as if nothing happened

You will never be like foam
Don’t you know that
So baby don’t cry, cry
My love will protect you and never let go

-EXO

Goodbye Ashley

As humans, we are taught to fight for what we want, but there comes a time when fighting isn't enough. There is a time when you realize that things are better when you don't fight 'fate.' I don't know if fate is real or not, but I do believe that things happen for a reason. To hold on to something, you must let it go and if fate wills it to return, then it shall in due time. So for now, I'm letting go hoping for your return.

Exam Week Means Study Week

Hey guys so it's exam week and I really need to study for it so I might not be posting as often until this week is up. :P Sorry guys!

Tired

Do you ever feel like giving up
like you're tired of trying to live up
to the expectations everyone has set
and being the reason why they are so upset.

.....me too....

Schools Don't Protect You From Harassment

Well, at my school, there was an incident involving my friend, a boy, and a closet.
   My friend had just met this boy, we will call him C for now, for the first time. My friend, who we will call A for now, didn't know anything about him except for what people had told her. What people had said about C was that he was a player and that he wasn't a very trustworthy person. Despite what people had told her, A listened to C and allowed him to take her to the school's band room. When they got there, there were people sitting there. They would be the witnesses. After they arrived, C asked A if he could show her something, A said sure and he took her by the hand and took her into the band room closet. This closet was notorious for "sexual" incidents because there was no camera in this room. Well, after they were inside A said she wanted to leave because she didn't feel comfortable. C then grabbed A's arms and pushed her against the wall. Hearing this one of the students ran and opened the door. When they did they saw C with his hands holding hers against the wall and trying to kiss her as she dodged his mouth. Unable to slap him, she kept repeating for him to stop, but when she opened her mouth a second time he caught her lips and began kissing her. It was obvious that this wasn't what she wanted. Eventually, the student got C off of A and A took off crying, damaged by what had just occurred.
   A few days after this, she went to the school counselor to report what happened hoping that they would do something about it.  When she did, the counselor reported this to the administrator. When the administrator found out she asked A to do a write up about what happened. A did as she was asked. Then, the office requested for C to come in to give a testimony about what happened. Obviously, he denied everything. A then told the office about the witness. They interviewed the witness and the witness told them what happened. After having two students confirm that C did sexually harass A, the administrators decided.
   A was then blamed for false accusations. Why? It was later discovered that C's mom worked at the school and that she had also given a testimony about how wonderful and how trustworthy her son is/was. Despite the fact that C's mom was not a witness, they took her word over the kids. A was then punished and C was not.

Do you think this is o.k? Do you find this wrong? It is wrong. This must be stopped. Schools think that they can walk all over children because they are older. They think that because we are minors that we can be stomped all over! Well, we have a voice! We have a right to speak. Let's use it.
  

Want To Hear Me...Sing?

I think I might begin posting videos on YouTube of me singing some songs that I wrote and was wondering if you all would be interested in them. If so I will post them here, too maybe and see if you like them? Let me know!